Last night started it all…I finally realized that as a mom you do need to make sacrifices.  I have been seeking my happiness and spending time too much on me and what I was looking for.  Probably neglecting my baby without knowing it by being on the phone more than I should have been vs. spending more time with her.

I need to focus more of my time that I can make on Lilly.  When I am not working, I should just be home with Lilly.

I am not in a place where I could give my heart and time to anyone other than Lilly.  It would be a half hearted thing to both Lilly and whoever. And Lilly is my priority.  Her behavior and emotions needs my full attention.