Maybe, Maybe not.

Girl: had a crappy and tiring day. Wants to see guy.

Guy: I don’t need to see you for dinner. I ate already.

Girl: oh ok…I guess you did already eat. I’ll find friends to eat with then.

(dinner time passes, say 2 hours give or take) girl calls guy…no answer.  Texted, no answer… a few more hours pass…

Guy: short text & call back. Explains he was driving (oh ok…must have been many hours of driving! Maybe now he’ll want to see me?)

Girl: waits…hmm. Tired…exhausted…dizzy… & calls guy.

Guy: oh, I’m not doing anything important. (oh…I thought you said you may be on the way…)

guy: oh I was driving to a guys house. Just sitting at his table not doing anything (girl thinks- oh wow…I guess sitting at a table doing nothing, playing with his dog …is a real nice thing…not important at all…when I kinda wanted you by my side.

Oh well. Not going to force you to do something you don’t want. Especially when you really think about what you say/text.

If you know I wanted you and/ to spend time with you, why must you say “do you still want me to go…?” When I was waiting on you waiting for your bro… I guess I should have known you’d rather do other things like sit at a table with nothing better to do (than to see me) when you said “can’t that wait another day?”

When I explained to you earlier how important it is for me to get it done already.  Why the heck would I lug my tired ass around town looking for something specific to get if I didn’t need it? Hmm…I shouldn’t wait around any more. 7pm-2am is pretty enough. I could have done more with my limited time than wait for someone who won’t even come.

Or should I say don’t want to come. He said he will if I need him to or want him to…but he doesn’t really make it seem like he wants to. I need to get more busy! So I don’t continue to wait to see if I’ll get a call past 2:39am…I guess his short text of he’s going home at 1:13 should mean that’s it.  I’m again over analyzing and wasting my time and energy. I need to get over this fast! And hopefully get some sleep. I’ve got to work a table all by myself without the usual help off a friend or significant other.   It was nice to have help and support while it lasted.  Nice to have a guy carry boxes of books…but I guess each day will teach me to be more independent and expect less help from those I thought would.  It’s nice that some tells me they want to help, tho the person I’d like to hear that from is either ignoring me or just not caring to help. Oh well…nothing I could do bout that…but try not to be sad and cheer myself up.

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